Next week seems to be a busy week for me. Extra tuitions, extra work, need to view gowns for photoshoot etc.
Somehow, I feel I stress myself too much over my birthday - catering, cake, decorations etc. Or is it because no one is helping me thats why I'm so stressed : ( Birthday coming soon, and I really need to order the catering fast(early bird discounts) and the cake, what kind of cake should I order ??? ARGH. Sometimes, I wonder to myself, why am I doing all these for when no one seems to bother. Is 21st really that "BIG" ? If it is, why doesn't my parents seem to bother, and leave me to all these, and why doesn't my bf seem to help me with them too? GOSH, I'm going crazy over reading forums about caterings and cakes. If only I had more money, I wouldn't need the early bird discounts or go through forums to see which caterer is nice and economical and cakes wouldn't be a problem too. Its all about money in the end.
I want the money spent to be worth it and not get any lousy caterer or cakes. I liked Yan Ting's cake from Rive Gauche but if I take the same cake as her, a bit weird haha. Decorations wise, Sally is gonna shop with me for it.
On the other hand, I'm trying very hard to lose weight, cos I really can't stand my weight anymore. Used to be 52 kg, now 60 kg, think I lost 1 or 2 now 59 or 58. At least I see a 5 there. HAIZ. Why do I feel so stressed even when its the holidays????????
Bibi & me haven't been on a date for more than 1 month. Sighs. Sometimes I feel so bored, either I join his family for dinner or he come my house for dinner. Actually, to be more definite, its I keep going to his house, cos mayb he thinks I'm having holidays and I'm free?? Sometimes, I feel so alone and I think to myself, can I see both of us together in the future?
Mummy got into an accident a few days ago, God bless her she didn't lose her life or even get very serious injuries.
SIGHS ! I get negative so easily !
And I feel like punching Ricky for not returning my money even after a week. ARGH ! Already told him I very tight le but he not zi dong. : (
Somehow, I feel I stress myself too much over my birthday - catering, cake, decorations etc. Or is it because no one is helping me thats why I'm so stressed : ( Birthday coming soon, and I really need to order the catering fast(early bird discounts) and the cake, what kind of cake should I order ??? ARGH. Sometimes, I wonder to myself, why am I doing all these for when no one seems to bother. Is 21st really that "BIG" ? If it is, why doesn't my parents seem to bother, and leave me to all these, and why doesn't my bf seem to help me with them too? GOSH, I'm going crazy over reading forums about caterings and cakes. If only I had more money, I wouldn't need the early bird discounts or go through forums to see which caterer is nice and economical and cakes wouldn't be a problem too. Its all about money in the end.
I want the money spent to be worth it and not get any lousy caterer or cakes. I liked Yan Ting's cake from Rive Gauche but if I take the same cake as her, a bit weird haha. Decorations wise, Sally is gonna shop with me for it.
On the other hand, I'm trying very hard to lose weight, cos I really can't stand my weight anymore. Used to be 52 kg, now 60 kg, think I lost 1 or 2 now 59 or 58. At least I see a 5 there. HAIZ. Why do I feel so stressed even when its the holidays????????
Bibi & me haven't been on a date for more than 1 month. Sighs. Sometimes I feel so bored, either I join his family for dinner or he come my house for dinner. Actually, to be more definite, its I keep going to his house, cos mayb he thinks I'm having holidays and I'm free?? Sometimes, I feel so alone and I think to myself, can I see both of us together in the future?
Mummy got into an accident a few days ago, God bless her she didn't lose her life or even get very serious injuries.
SIGHS ! I get negative so easily !
And I feel like punching Ricky for not returning my money even after a week. ARGH ! Already told him I very tight le but he not zi dong. : (
