I received this message from a friend of mine, telling me that his number is not a helpline. Felt quite sad. I have always treated this friend of mine, although not as a very close friend or what, but at least someone I can talk to, someone whom I can trust, although many people think I shouldn't. I'm sorry if I offended you by giving your number to my sister. You were the only artsy friend I knew and I thought maybe you could help my sister with whatever she needed to ask because I knew you as a helpful guy, but since you can spurt out that your number is not a helpline, this means that you no longer treat me as your friend. Please do not remain bitter bout the past. Whats is past is already past. Once again, I apologize.
I have been once by someone that apologizing is of no use, there must be actions taken to correct the wrong actions. I actually agreed and disagreed with him. I feel that apologizing is essential if someone has done something wrong. But it must be a sincere one though because it is a way of acknowledging you are sorry bout what you have done. And since you know your mistake, why repeat the actions over and over again ? Of course, I have met people whom I can hear many sorrys from but still remain the same. And I'm tired of hearing the sorrys over and over again. So I agree with him. But I know people who apologize and know their mistake, and never make the same mistake again.
Bels once told me, he thinks I trust people too easily and too much. Sometimes I think so too.
I'm slowly growing accustomed to this. And I don't know what ideas again you have in your head.
And I feel so weird, like I'm turning into another person. I'm so full of nonsense... Haha.
Zuan Shu Tian Shi
