I'm so happy that I'm finally recovering ! I hate being SICK.

So scary... Especially yesterday when I was in NUH, its like we were so afraid that what might happen what might happen that kinda thingy. And my silly Laopo cried, but if I were her, I think I will too. Sighs... My Laopo, I think the mention of hospitals just scares her... ) =

Although the headaches still come on and off, I believe by tomorrow or after this weekend it will get better, I hope it will. I wanna go back to being a studious girl LOLS~* Loads of work to catch up on... Wonder how I'm gonna do it... I remember one night, I felt very terrible, headaches, couldn't get to sleep,and the spraying medicine for my flu makes me feel so pain. I called Kor, hahs. Then hung up after a while... Because it was making me feel worse... Because I feel sad, got that kinda heartache in my heart. Or maybe I know no one's gonna make me feel better ? Hung up, cried for awhile... Hahas~* Then decided to call Quan. I don't know what made me do that but well. In the beginning he heard me cry, he was like very shocked. Hahs. Then after knowing why, he called me a crybaby. Say I'm lousy and all that. =.= Then somehow I stopped crying le, then later on I felt better. Was it because of the medicine taking effect or was it because of Quan scolding me cum trying to make me laugh I don't know. But all I know is I felt better. Thanks Quan.

The same night, my Laopo was with fever... So worried bout her but theres nothing I can do. I know theres nobody at home to take care of her but I also can't go down, wonder how she is and all that. Confided in Quan in some of the stuff of my Laopo. I think he got me to talk thats why I felt better. He distracts me. Sometimes I think I'm just like baby =.= Needa distract me when I'm crying. Hahas~*

Anyways, yups... Bout bear. I don't know why its like this or what happened... Why it turned out this way and all that. Apparently, me telling bear all that and trying didn't help. Or maybe its one sided all along. But yesterday was "the last straw". Not of anger but of sadness... Hahas~* Told Laopo everything... Laopo asked me tell him I'm in hospital see how he will react. But well. I just messaged her and said "I don't wanna do that, see no point and my heart die le" Yeps. Just leave everything as it is le... Don't wanna care already... Hmms all this sounds familiar so this time I'm not gonna be soft hearted. I'm sure he has all his reasons for doing all that as he have said... So well, I'm not bitter towards him or feeling angry ba. I'm just well leave it as it is. Can say that hes da first guy after Quan I do care loads bout although not a lot a lot but compared to others. Or should I say if you ask me to mention a guy other than Quan, the first I will mention is him. To me, maybe he just that kinda dependable guy whom you can lean on but I won't. Hahs. Aiya. Actually I'm just talking nonsense. But since this is a blog, its for me to rant everything to clear my mind and then get on with whatever I'm gonna do laters. Gonna try doing homework laters. ( =

Theres one person I would like to thank and you know who you are. Appreciate for being there. Yups, that simple.

Actually I'm just typing this post to say whatever is in my heart, although no one will read it. Hees~*

Tata.