Hmms. I seem to have quite a bit to blog today.

Lets start with the weird dream I had the day before... I only remembered yesterday, just before I went to sleep. It was a dream about my younger sister's death. T_T Stupid, right ? I don't exactly remember much. Only remember, I was looking for something, something that can revive my sister. And it was the second time she died. First time she did, I also went looking for that thingy to revive her. But this time, they tell me it doesn't work. Normally, Chinese funerals, after a few days, they'll have to go to the crematorium to burn the body... But this time, for my sister's they didn't. Because of me. I didn't want to give up. I went looking for other solutions... My parents and relatives thought that I'm silly. I remember being in a bus... With someone. That someone was there with me... But I can't recall who. He was there to comfort me and help me along. Then I remember being in the rain... Drenched, with thunder and lightning.. So scary... Then after that... Went back to the funeral... Finally broke down and cried like hell... My relatives wanted to comfort me... But my Dad simply said "Let her cry" Even in my dreams, my Dad understands me the most... Oh my... Its such a scary dream... All I felt throughout the dream was anxiety, keep trying to reach but can't reach, so helpless... And the sadness, I felt, was quite real. I can't imagine if it really happen... I think I can't take it... My baobei precious sister... Feel so disturbed after this dream... Even as I'm typing this... The hairs on my hands and legs stand...

Yups... Yesterday was deciding between going to church and Ricky's celebration. Church, last week I didn't go... Because of what reasons, I can't remember. I think my parents wanted me to accompany them to Malaysia... If I remember correctly. Then... I miss going to church, really. And poor Caleb had to take the train there and home alone... He keeps msging me and ask what time I'll be going... So sorry Caleb... Yups... But I went to Ricky's celebration yesterday because Ronnie was too good at persuading... Although the people there I only knew 3... And felt quite out of place... But its okay...

Omg something humugous and green just appeared halfway through when I was typing !! Scary man... Phew. Anyways, was saying its okay because I kept myself busy... I mean I go people's house, thats the least I could do bahs... Maybe I'm not quite used to just sitting down and eating bahs... Troubling them... So I rather at least do something, like maybe helping to wash the plates and arranging them this kinda simple stuff... And making Tang Yuan ! Hmms. So long never make Tang Yuan, Muah Chee or Cheesecake already... Miss making them... They all say its nice... Hahas~* LOLS~* But yesterday's Tang Yuan... The dough, not I make de = P So not nice not my fault... I remember my granny taught me... The dough must not be too dry and must be really soft... Yesterday's was too dry and hard = P Yups... We had steamboat... Steamboat I ate mostly squid, prawns, fishballs, all the seafood. LOLS~* Thankfully the prawns were peeled before hand. Hees~* Everytime I mention prawns, I'll remember the time my family, me and Quan had steamboat at my Uncle and his friend's steamboat shop. I love prawns and he kept peeling them for me... So sweet right ? What a pampered girl I am... Hees~* Anyways, back to topic. Then cut cake... Played pictionary and went for a movie... Home Sweet home... Such a sad movie... Made me cry at the end. And I screamed one... What a scaredy cat. -_-: My sisters came along and watched too = D Like never watch movie with them before... Hahas~* But its kinda weird, I see Ricky doing these and that, serving us... I mean He's the birthday boy, he should be enjoying right ? But his friends say birthday boy should be tiring de... Hmms. Weird logic. And oh ya. Among his friends, I knew Ronnie and Charis, Sakae colleagues... Han, my primary school schoolmate !! Oh my... Its like how come I keep bumping into them ?? Just the other day I bumped into Lin Rui too ! Hmms...

Before the movie... I saw 2 people, whom occupied my mind... One is Ling... Another is that person knows who that person is. Saw Ling with a guy... I don't know why but I feel after Keith, she's like hiding thingys from us... I think she spoke to me, but I was very shocked, and I didn't react... My eyes just grew bigger... And when queueing for the drinks and stuff, my eyes grew bigger a second time. I just told my younger sister, who likes playing pool, "Don't ever go there and play pool. That place is a very messy and complicated place." Then that person walked out. -_-: Quite sad huh ? Its like so weird, seeing that person. Well at least I felt weird, theres this stirring feeling in my heart. Like something thats awoken up. Yups... Anyways, before I went to sleep, I just thought of something suddenly. The other time I saw him, in the NP underground... He was also wearing the same baby blue t-shirt and jeans... Such a coincidence yeah ? Just like that time he said I was wearing the same thingy. I guess there are still some thingys I can't accept... Like playing pool in such a messy and complicated place... If my sisters were to go there playing, I'll feel like damn sad... Unless that place is like quite empty... Sometimes I think I'm too tied to some standard thingys... Which make me can't accept going to those kinda places although in actual fact is nothing... Like Ling going clubbing, Fen and Jeff going play pool... Stuff like that. If its possible, I'll avoid those places as much as possible...

Anyways, my left eye hurt when I touch it... Hahas~* just remembered my right eye hurt this way too... When someone knocked into me with the hard bones someone have... But I don't know why my left eye hurt now... Maybe because my eyes grew big 2 times... LOLS~* Lame huh ?

Yesterday's dream... Also quite weird... But I can't remember what its about already... Only remember the characters inside, which I don't wish to mention... Why do I keep having disturbing dreams ?