I'm so tired. But I can't get to sleep. I don't know why.
Today...
Went for Fen's mum funeral in the early afternoon... Went there until 11 plus bahs... Heartbreaking scene... How the wails for their beloved mum and wife is so deafening...
It was raining throughout the day... Goosebumps stood all the way... Such a cold day... Even up to now... Still goosebumps... Was feeling very unwell too, both physically and emotionally bahs. Stomach cramps plus I got caught in the rain. Couldn't cry in front of Fen... I just couldn't cry. Then towards the end of the night... Ern called me........ I just lost control and cried... Perhaps its good that I cried loads in the morning. At least I won't do that in front of Laopo... Although I can't do much... The very least I can do is to be there for her. Hais.
Today is not a good day. Mostly because of this matter... I'm just too tired to think bout whats going on in some other areas of my life anymore... Too tired. The least I expect is understanding from some people... I'm a porcupine... Stay away from me if you don't wanna get hurt. Danger danger !
But through this, I can tell who really cares... Who's by my side.
My head's bursting.
My heart and head is heavy...
