Necessary Madness.

This book = Thumbs up. Its bout a widow who had just lost her husband, with an 8 year old kid to raise. She struggles between sanity and insanity, for the sake of her precious son. The madness of grief is a constant temptation she must withstand. Alongside, there's this failure of her parent's marriage in the past. Her father had pointed a pistol to his head and shot himself to death. She had always had a poor relationship with her mum. They must find ways to overcome the barrier that builds up a wall between them. And the possibility of beginning a new relationship. The need to remember and the desire to forget...

-In struggling against anguish one never produces serenity; the struggle against anguish only produces new forms of anguish-

-No one ever told me that gief felt so like fear-

Love this book. Wonder how its like having a person so close to you die the next moment. I can't possibly stand that. Just imaging it makes me wanna cry... I don't know how I will pick myself up if that ever happens. And bout this necessary madness that I will have. I guess you'll just have to leave grief the way it is...

Sometimes you can just hear the raucous calling of grief. Worst possible thing that can happen is that you are forever in grief and can't escape from it. Can't recover from it. And what is called recovering from grief ? I don't know. Perhaps no one really know how to describle it.

Hur hur... Potato must be the most direct person I've ever known. He asks embarrassing questions as if they were just any normal kinda of questions... And I'm the sort of person who turns red easily. Thank GOD he wasn't in front of me. I'm so sorry I don't have any answer to any of your questions.

Why must this area of my life always be in a tumult ? Maybe its because thats how the world is. I always heard its horrible for girls to have no one going after them. But I think its more horrible for girls to have many going after them but yet she doesn't like any of them or do not have any answer to any. ( : I understood Quan's "I'm not ready to commit" finally. Maybe love's altogether clique ? But I haven't been able to believe it.

Listening to "When a man loves a woman". The song has beautiful lyrics... But its so clique.

-raucous calling from my <3-